KATE
MCCANN believes a note in a restaurant reservation book led to her
daughter Madeleine's abduction, she has revealed.
The
three-year-old was snatched from the family's holiday apartment in
Portugal while the McCanns and their friends dined in a tapas bar.
But
Kate's request to book a table near the apartments because the
group's children would be alone inside was written on a reservation
book left in full view of the public.
As
she went to Mass at a church near the family home in Rothley,
Leicestershire, yesterday, details emerged of her shock at finding
the security lapse at the Ocean Club resort in Praia da Luz.
In
her book Madeleine, she recalled: "This book was by definition
accessible to all staff and, albeit unintentionally, probably to
guests and visitors, too.
"To
my horror, I saw that, no doubt in all innocence, the receptionist
had added that we wanted to eat close to our apartments as we were
leaving our young children alone there and checking on them
intermittently."
Kate
discovered the blunder while reviewing Portuguese police case files
after their investigation was shelved.
She
fears a kidnapper could have been tipped off that Madeleine and her
brother and sister, twins Sean and Amelie, were alone in the
apartment on May 3, 2007.
Kate, 43, also revealed she felt suicidal in the days after
Madeleine vanished. She said she had an "overwhelming" urge to swim
out into the sea and drown herself, adding: "Somehow, inflicting
physical pain on myself seemed to be the only possible way of
escaping my internal pain."
Her
husband Gerry's ability to "switch off" and hide his feelings seemed
almost callous to her.
Kate
also revealed that she and Gerry had slept in separate beds the
night before Madeleine disappeared. She was angry he left the
group's dinner table "abruptly" - at 11.50pm - to go to bed.
Kate
also told how a mental health patient was arrested trying to break
into the family home.
But
she said they have no plans to move because "I want to be in the
house where Madeleine lived so if we found her it would be familiar
to her."
It
emerged yesterday that violent Scottish paedophiles Charles O'Neill
and William Lauchlan were quizzed in jail about Madeleine's
disappearance.
The
pair, from Largs, Ayrshire, were touring Spain and possibly Portugal
on false passports when she vanished.
They
were jailed for 56 years between them last year for carrying out sex
attacks on children and murdering Allison McGarrigle, a mother who
threatened to expose them.
O'Neill resembles a thin, spotty suspect seen in Praia da Luz
shortly before Madeleine vanished.
German child killer Martin Ney, 40, is also being questioned. He
looks similar to a a man seen holding a child minutes after
Madeleine was snatched.
Ney
is also being quizzed over three child murders and 40 attacks.
