From Gerry's blogs:   "Sometimes people do things for reasons that even they cannot understand." "An act of madness, an accident or sudden impulse can lead to consequences that people may never have imagined or intended." "Faced with such a situation we believe any human soul will ultimately suffer torment and feelings of guilt and fear."

Gerry McCann on grieving

"The first 48 hours was akin to having a bereavement. It was as though Madeleine had died. It was anguish, despair, guilt, helplessness all falling into one.   "But it is different to a death, where you grieve and try to move on. Madeleine is not dead. We have been thrown into an ongoing trauma, an ongoing crisis of the unknown."   - Telegraph, 31 May 2007   "In the first few weeks when I slipped into dark moments of despair, I was finding it quite easy to emotionally switch a light back on.   "But I've been finding it increasingly difficult to do.   "I don't want to do that any more. I want to be able to grieve and let those emotions out."   - Daily Mirror, 11 June 2007

Leaving home for fun in the local park, with the twins

Gerry McCann and the long-term agenda 'On the flight to Berlin, Gerry wearily admitted the couple's campaign to find Madeleine could last years. They refuse to leave Praia da Luz while their precious daughter is still missing. Asked how long they might stay there, he said: "Well, our kids don't start school for three years."' - Daily Mirror, 07 June 2007

In brief

Gerald Patrick McCann   Father of Madeleine Beth McCann   Date of birth: 05 June 1968   Place of birth: Glasgow, Scotland   Education: Holyrood R.C. Secondary School, Glasgow   Employment: Cardiologist at Glenfield Hospital in Leicester, England   Gerry studied medicine at Glasgow University, initially specialising and lecturing in sports medicine.    Medical directory details

Courageous parents who won respect for dignity and resolve, 12 May 2007

Courageous parents who won respect for dignity and resolve Timesonline   Martin Fletcher May 12, 2007   GMB LINK

Gerry comments on the concealment of drugs in sport, 31 July 2000

Doping: Banned substances BBC Sport   By BBC News Online health section Monday, 31 July, 2000, 16:10 GMT 17:10 UK   Athletes are banned from taking thousands of chemical substances that experts believe will give them an unfair advantage. There are five main categories of drug that are banned:   Anabolic steroids - these help athletes to build muscle, and to recover faster from training; Peptide hormones - these are substances that occur naturally in the body, but which produce similar effects to the anabolic steroids; Strong analgesic painkillers - such as morphine and other opiates; Stimulants - drugs like amphetamines and cocaine can raise the heart rate and may improve performance; Diuretics - chemicals that help the body to lose fluids, and may, for instance, be useful in helping boxers to meet their fighting weight. In addition, to the five main categories there are other types of drugs that are subject to restrictions on their use. These include local anaesthetics and drugs used to treat medical conditions such as cortico-steroids, used to treat asthma, and beta-blockers, used to treat heart conditions. Dr Gerry McCann, a lecturer in sports medicine at the Centre for Exercise Science and Medicine at Glasgow University, said the list of banned substances was so comprehensive that it was highly unlikely that an athlete could take a legal substance, but register a positive result in a doping test. However, he said there were two areas that could catch athletes out. Some cold and cough remedies include banned stimulants such as ephedrin and pseudo-ephedrin. However, athletes are warned about the risks associated with taking such medications without first checking the ingredients. Secondly, some herbal remedies contain banned substances. For instance, Olympic sprinter Linford Christie was cleared of wrongdoing despite failing a drugs test when it was discovered he had drunk ginseng tea. The problem with many herbal drinks is that they do not provide an exhaustive list of contents. It is also possible that an athlete has a medical condition that has led to abnormally high levels of naturally occurring peptide hormones. And - as in the case of middle distance runner Diane Modahl - incorrect storing of a urine sample may alter its chemical components. Positive test Dr McCann said: "It a positive test is found two things are likely to have happened. Either the athlete has taken a banned substance by mistake in an over-the-counter medicine, or they have taken a substance which they could only have got hold of illegally. "If the later is the case then they have either taken it knowingly, or somebody has given it to them without their knowledge. However, quite a lot of these substances have to be taken by injection so it is very unlikely that they will know nothing about it." Professor Peter Radford, of the sports science department at Brunel University, agreed that there was no way an athlete could have taken anabolic steroids by mistake, but he said there was a "grey area" over some of the other banned substances. He said: "So many of the proprietory medicines for coughs and colds contain stimulants such as ephedrin that I can see that a young, inexperienced athlete might naively take a chemical in this way, thinking it was perfectly alright. "However, I would be surprised if an experienced athlete did that because they know how vigilant they need to be." Professor Radford said another possibility was that vitamin supplements might be contaminated with banned substances. "A lot of these products are not produced by the major drug houses and nobody can vouch for the way they are prepared,or for their purity." Fitness supplements There is also much controversy surrounding a new generation of fitness supplements that are widely used by athletes as a legal alternative to anabolic steroids. These include creatine, a substance found naturally in the body and in foods such as meat and fish. Creatine is sold legally over the counter in synthetic form as an amino acid powder. It helps build muscle and speeds recovery from training. A recent national newspaper poll of top athletes found that more than half had admitted taking the substance. However, some experts believe creatine could cause long-term damage to health. It has been linked to kidney damage and shorter term problems such as muscle cramping and dehydration. Other amino acid based supplements that can be legally used by athletes include:   Glutamine - claimed to reduce fatigue, build muscle and boost the immune system; Trypthophan or 5HT - claimed to boost production of the "fight or flight" hormone adrenalin; Protein powders - claimed to improve recovery after training and increase strength and muscle growth.

Gerry works on 'The Wider Agenda', 14/15 June 2007

Gerry gets to work on 'The Wider Agenda' Close up of the 'Summative Overview' Extract's from Gerry's blogs   14 June 2007 - Kate and I picked up a friend [Jon Corner] from Faro airport who has been instrumental in helping with the campaign. He has been fantastic, producing the DVD of Madeleine to 'Don't you forget about me' which has been shown at many sporting events and concerts as well as producing the look for maddie logo and various posters. We spent most of the day updating each other and discussing future campaign ideas.   15 June 2007 - We have made some real progress deciding on campaign strategy.

Is Gerry the biological father of Madeleine? (24horas' 10 questions)

24horas: 'Gerry is not the biological father of Madeleine' 11 October 2007   Gerry reacts angrily to reports in the Portugese 24horas newspaper, which suggest that he is not Madeleine's biological father. The paper claims to have tracked the real father to Birmingham.   Gerry was forced to reveal intimate details of how his daughter was conceived with a sperm sample in a fertility clinic. Furious Gerry recounted how his sample was collected and mixed with an egg from GP wife Kate after reports in Portugal claimed he was not Maddie’s dad – and that she was created with donor sperm. Portuguese paper 24horas reported that Madeleine’s DNA was vastly different from that of Gerry and her two-year-old twin siblings Sean and Amelie and claimed police had visited a sperm bank in England and tracked down the missing girl’s "real" father to rule him out of any involvement in her disappearance. It claimed this was "very relevant" because body fluids with an 88% match to Madeleine’s were found in a car the McCanns hired 24 days after she vanished from their apartment in Praia da Luz, Portugal, on May 3. The McCanns say the DNA in the car could have come from the twins – but the newspaper’s claims that Madeleine had a different father would, if true, make that impossible.   A close family pal said the McCanns had reacted "with horror’" to the claims. "The sperm donor could not have been eliminated because the only donor was Gerry," he said. "He damn well knows because of the IVF process he went through that he is 100% the father. He was in the clinic. He did the business. The police don’t even know which clinic they used, so how can they have tracked it down?"   Gerry’s mum Eileen, 67, called the claims "ridiculous", adding that Madeleine, who disappeared two days before her fourth birthday, had several "McCann features’". 24horas editor Luis Fontes said his story was confirmed by Portuguese and British police insiders. "It’s true," he said. "Our sources are rock solid. If they think they can sue us, bring it on."   Clarence Mitchell says: "Due to further unwarranted, unsubstantiated and totally inaccurate speculation in the Portuguese press today, Gerry and Kate McCann and their lawyers have authorised me to issue the following statement.   "For the record, Gerry is the biological father of his daughter Madeleine. A newspaper report in the 24horas newspaper suggesting otherwise is nothing short of lies. It is indeed an absolute fabrication."   12 October 2007   Rute Coelho Clarence Mitchell, the McCann's spokesman, denied yesterday, on behalf of the couple and of Gerry and Kate's lawyers, 24horas' headline. "False news, unfounded and totally speculative", said Mitchell. "Gerry is Maddie's biological father. The news published today in 24horas are a succession of fabricated lies", he added in the statement.   Gerry and Kate McCann's lawyers, in both countries, remind the editors of both countries that they are monitoring the case's coverage very closely and will not hesitate to act, taking the appropriate legal actions in the two countries, when and how that may be necessary. 24horas tried to talk to Clarence Mitchell yesterday, but his cellphone was off from 16:00 on. Before that time, it was connected but he didn’t answer. Because of that, and after a phone call to Penny Rose, an assessor of the Find Madeleine Fund, she guaranteed us that Mitchell would be "unavailable all afternoon". We sent two more e-mails to Penny, addressed to Mitchell. The first, sent at 17:27, contained the following nine questions: 1. 24horas confirmed today with PJ and Instituto Nacional de Medicina Legal (Portugal's forensic institute), that Gerry is not the biological father. Can you comment? 2. Was Madeleine conceived through artificial insemination? (to this question, Penny Rose answered yes by phone) 3. Does Gerry have a written statement from the laboratory stating who the donor was? If so, can you send us that statement? 4. When did Gerry make the sperm donation? 5. Did Gerry ever had a paternity test? When? 6. Does Gerry consider the possibility that he doesn't know who was the real donor for Madeleine’s conception? 7. How are the McCanns reacting to the PJ's interest in Gerry's paternity and to the importance that this element had to the investigation? 8. Is it true that the McCanns hired their own forsensics team? If so, why? 9. Do the McCanns still harbour hope that their daughter will be found? 24horas mentioned in the e-mail that it would wait until 21:00 for the answers, the deadline for closing the edition. There was no answer. Before this deadline expired, at 20:14, we sent Penny Rose another e-mail with one question: 10. We have confirmed, through police sources, that Maddie's biological father was identified in the UK by the British police and that the authorities verified that he was in the UK when Madeleine disappeared. We'd like you to comment also on this information. This last question was also left without an answer.

'I AM Madeleine's dad': Gerry McCann rejects claims sperm donor was used for IVF, 12 October 2007

'I AM Madeleine's dad': Gerry McCann rejects claims sperm donor was used for IVF Daily Mail   By VANESSA ALLEN Last updated at 16:49 12 October 2007   Gerry McCann has been forced to issue an extraordinary statement insisting that Madeleine is his natural daughter.   The heart consultant said he had acted to counter 'lies and absolute fabrication' in the Portuguese press.   According to 24 Horas, Madeleine, who was conceived using IVF, was the child of his wife, Kate, and an unnamed sperm donor.   The newspaper claimed that the four-year old's parentage meant her DNA could not be confused with that of two-year-old twins Sean and Amelie.   The supposed revelation would prove that bodily fluids found in the family's hire car had come from Madeleine and not from her brother or sister, the tabloid said.   Portuguese police are seeking evidence that the girl's body was transported in the Renault Scenic, which was hired 25 days after she disappeared.   The sperm donor story was dismissed as 'unwarranted, unsubstantiated and totally inaccurate speculation' by the family's spokesman Clarence Mitchell.   In a strongly worded statement agreed by the couple and their lawyers, he said: 'For the record Gerry McCann is the biological father of his daughter Madeleine.   "A newspaper report in the 24 Horas newspaper suggesting otherwise is nothing short of lies. It is indeed an absolute fabrication."   Mr Mitchell said the family's legal team was monitoring media coverage and would not hesitate to take action 'at the appropriate stage' in Portugal or Britain.   The newspaper - one of Portugal's most popular - claimed police there were certain Madeleine was not Mr McCann's child.   It claimed investigations in Britain had uncovered her biological father's identity.   The report caused 'complete horror and total distress' within the family, a friend said.   The McCanns were particularly upset that the latest claim came days after Portugal's most senior policeman vowed to clamp down on the constant smears and leaks from inside the Madeleine investigation.   Mr Mitchell said: "We have up to a year to sue and we will do. Gerry and Kate want to concentrate on the case involving Madeleine and don't want to do anything that may compromise that while they are official suspects.   "But they plan to sue 24 Horas and any other media outlets that print these claims as soon as the official suspect status is lifted."   Mr McCann's mother Eileen, 67, from Glasgow, said: 'To say Gerry is not Madeleine's natural father is utterly ridiculous.   "Madeleine is my natural granddaughter. Her eyes and nose are the same as mine.   "These allegations are totally unfounded. They are pure speculation and a load of nonsense. Whatever will the Portuguese papers make up next?"   Jill Renwick, a close friend of the family, described the report as "absolute rubbish". She said: "Gerry is Madeleine's biological father. I know for a fact there was no donor sperm.   "Whoever is coming out with these claims is really clutching at straws. It is corrupt."   The McCanns underwent IVF treatment near their Leicestershire home before Madeleine was conceived. They had further IVF treatment to conceive their twins while they were living in Amsterdam.   A friend said the 24 Horas report was published without any contact with the family.   The newspaper has run a series of articles this week which have all strongly denied by the McCanns.   Its co- editor, Luis Fontes, insisted he stood by the sperm donor story.   He said it was confirmed by the Forensic Science Service in Birmingham, which has carried out analysis on samples taken from the McCanns' apartment and hire car.   The FSS denied it had made any comment on the case.   Mr Fontes said he was not aware of any threat of legal action from the McCanns over the article and added: "It is absolutely true. Our sources are rock solid."   He added: "If they [the McCanns] think they can sue us, bring it on."   Friends also denied claims in another Portuguese newspaper, Diario de Noticias, which said Mrs McCann, a 39-year-old GP, flew into a fit of rage after she was made a suspect in the case.   She was said to have broken crockery, pictures and "anything she could get her hands on" in the couple's hired villa in Praia da Luz.   Madeleine went missing from the Algarve resort on May 3.   Meanwhile, Mr McCann, 39, said he was encouraged by comments from Portugal's most senior detective, Alipio Ribeiro, who said the couple were still suspects but that police would consider other theories.   Forensic test results in the case will be given to police next week, it emerged yesterday.   The McCanns have been warned they could be asked to return to Portugal for further questioning.   The results are expected to be handed over on Monday but there could be further delays because two Portuguese government ministries will see them before they are passed on to the police.

Gerry in New Zealand, Source: nzherald.co.nz

Parents of girl missing in Portugal met in NZ 6:10PM Monday May 14, 2007 The parents of Madeline McCann, the four-year-old British girl missing in Portugal, got their relationship together in New Zealand. Gerry McCann, the surgeon father of Madeline, worked in Hawke's Bay and played soccer for Napier City Rovers in 1996, Hawke's Bay Today newspaper reported. A multi-million pound reward has been offered for the information leading to the return of Madeleine, who was snatched from her bed at a Portugese beach resort on May 3 while her parents were dining at a nearby restaurant. Gerry McCann was a "down-to-earth, natural, great guy" said Rovers stalwarts Ian Gearey and Jim Scott, who attended his wedding to Kate McCann eight years ago. The couple's romance flourished after Mr McCann followed his future wife to New Zealand, Mr Gearey said. "Kate was working as a doctor in Wellington. He told us he'd come for her, he came to woo her, really. He won her heart and, of course they got together here, and not that terribly long after they got married in the UK." Mr Gearey had tried to contact the McCanns since Madeline's disappearance, to let the frantic family know their Kiwi mates were there for support. Mr McCann was a "very, very" talented surgeon who was very well regarded and worked in Hawke's Bay, Mr Gearey said. Mrs McCann is a GP while her husband is a heart specialist. " Both of them are lovely people." - NZPA

Gerry on 'Friends Reunited'

Original entry: Good to see so many familiar names and a few faces! Is anyone not doing well? Finished medicine and working as a cardiology registrar in Leicestersince Jan 2000 (hopefully temporarily). Had a brilliant year in New Zealand 1995/96. Married to Kate (Healy, for those docs in Glasgow) and very happy although no kids-yet! Don't get to Glasgow that often but have bumped into a few old friends around the southside where my mum still lives. June 2003- Still in Leicester but now family of 3 after birth of Madeleine Beth on 12/05/03. Thankfully she takes after her mother although definitely has my lungs even without a dew drinks. August 2004- Bones- glad i left after 5th year! Currently in Amsterdam learning some fancy heart scanning(MRI) but returning to UK in New Year when hopefully will become family of 5. Looking for a consultant job and shortlist is Glasgow, Liverpool, Leicester in fact pretty much anywhere north of Birmingham April 2005- Back in Leicester and looking for a job. Now father of three with Sean and Amelie joing Maddie. Anyone fancy babysitting? Revised entry: Finished medicine and working as a cardiology registrar in Leicestersince Jan 2000 (hopefully temporarily). Had a brilliant year in New Zealand 1995/96. Married to Kate (Healy, for those docs in Glasgow) and very happy although no kids-yet! Don’t get to Glasgow that often but have bumped into a few old friends around the southside where my mum still lives. June 2003- Still in Leicester but now family of 3 after birth of Madeleine Beth on 12/05/03. Thankfully she takes after her mother although definitely has my lungs even without a dew drinks. August 2004- Bones- glad i left after 5th year! Currently in Amsterdam learning some fancy heart scanning(MRI) but returning to UK in New Year when hopefully will become family of 5. Looking for a consultant job and shortlist is Glasgow, Liverpool, Leicester in fact pretty much anywhere north of Birmingham April 2005- Back in Leicester and looking for a job. Now father of three with Sean and Amelie joing Maddie. May 2007 Thanks to everyone for support and good wishes, it really does help.

Gerry talks about his 'vision'

In an interview given to the Catholic newspaper The Tablet, published 16 June 2007, Gerry McCann told of an "extraordinary experience" inside the church in Praia da Luz just days after Madeleine's disappearance. The experience inspired him to launch the global campaign to find his daughter. He said: "When I was praying I started thinking of all the things that were happening. There were lots and lots of ideas in my head and how we could make things better and I was really feeling very down and not sure which way to proceed. I had this mental image of being in a tunnel and instead of the light at the end of the tunnel being extremely narrow and a distant spot, the light opened up and the tunnel got wider and wider and went in many different directions. I talked to you (Kate) about it and said, 'I am not prepared to pursue one path. We are going to do everything in our power to influence things.' "It was almost like something - I am not saying it was the Holy Spirit - came into me and gave me that image. That is when I really felt I had a clear path." Was it a religious experience? "I can't say it was a vision because I am not clear what a vision is but I had a mental image and it certainly helped me decide. I became a man possessed that night. The next day I was up at dawn, making phone calls."

'Hope, strength, courage', 16 June 2007

'Hope, strength, courage' The Tablet   Elena Curti 16 June 2007   The parents of missing Madeleine McCann tell The Tablet how these three words, spoken to them by a Portuguese priest, have become a mantra as they continue the search for their daughter, sustained by the power of their Catholic faith When Kate and Gerry McCann are at a low ebb they quietly murmur three words to themselves in Portuguese: esperança, força, coragem. The words mean hope, strength and courage and they were first addressed to them by a priest during the first Sunday Mass after their daughter Madeleine was abducted from their holiday apartment in Portugal. The words were repeated to them by parishioners after the service and now are something of a mantra for the couple, evidence of the strength of their Catholic faith. That faith has been apparent in much of what the couple have said and done since four-year-old Madeleine disappeared on 3 May. The couple agreed to talk to The Tablet, welcoming the opportunity to describe how their beliefs have sustained them. They arranged to meet me in Amsterdam, where they were spending a night before another round of interviews and meetings with officials connected with the campaign to find their daughter. The pair are noticeably close, sitting together on the sofa unselfconsciously holding hands. Mrs McCann looks tanned after more than a month on the Algarve but is terribly thin. As always, she is holding Madeleine's favourite soft toy - a now rather bedraggled pink cat. She has taken out the green and yellow ribbons she usually wears in her hair but there are ribbons on the toy cat and she and her husband wear green and yellow plastic armbands, the colours that denote hope for the missing. They begin by telling me their faith background. Both are cradle Catholics of Irish extraction. He is the youngest of five and was brought up in Glasgow. She is an only child from Liverpool. They were medical students at Glasgow University when they started going out and only later discovered that they came from similar backgrounds. He jokes that her Catholicism softened the blow when he told his mother he was going to marry an English girl. Mr McCann says there were periods when he lapsed, and both concede that religion was not foremost in their minds in their teens and twenties. They nod in agreement when I suggest that their faith began to mean much more to them after their had children. As well as Madeleine they have two-year-old twins, Sean and Amelie. Two years ago, after spending a year living in Amsterdam, the family moved to Rothley in Leicestershire. Mrs McCann works there as a part-time GP and her husband is a cardiologist at Glenfield General Hospital in Leicester. They particularly liked attending the Catholic church in Rothley where Mrs McCann's aunt is a eucharistic minister and her uncle plays the organ. On Sundays, Mr McCann would stay at home caring for the twins while his wife would take Madeleine to Mass. At the age of three she had just started going to the children's liturgy. Then came the week's holiday in a complex at Praia da Luz on the Portuguese Algarve coast. Madeleine was taken as she slept in the family's apartment with the twins while her parents dined in a restaurant close by. In low tones Mrs McCann explains their first reaction: "There was a period of absolute fear and panic. We were both quite hysterical." After calling their family in Britain, they spoke to Fr Paul Seddon, the priest who married them and baptised Madeleine. "At one point I would say the only thing we had was prayer and at one point I remember just slumping in the bedroom. I phoned Paul and he asked, ‘What can I do?' And I said, ‘Just pray, please pray,'" said Mr McCann. At first there was the fear that Madeleine was dead. Two things changed that. The first was a meeting with a psychologist sent from Britain to see them. As Mr McCann explained: "We couldn't get out of heads that she was likely to be dead and we were truly, truly grieving. But then the psychologist said, ‘Is there any other possibility?' And then he started channelling negatives and saying, ‘Of course there are other possibilities.' And we started to see that." The second was meeting the local parish priest, Fr José Manuel Pacheco. Fr Zé, as he is popularly known, is a great favourite with the McCanns: warm, genial and inspiring. He speaks fluent English and Mr McCann said he had worked hard to bring together the British expatriate community and Portuguese Catholics. It was Fr Zé at that first Sunday Mass who exhorted them to have hope, strength and courage. That evening he came to say the rosary with them at their apartment and invited his parishioners as well. Was it all a bit much? "Not at all, it was lovely. There were about 50 women and they brought the children. It was a huge comfort," she says. The parish priest also gave the McCanns the keys to the church so that they could pray there alone in the evenings. It was while they were doing this early in the first week that Mr McCann had an extraordinary experience. "When I was praying I started thinking of all the things that were happening. There were lots and lots of ideas in my head and how we could make things better and I was really feeling very down and not sure which way to proceed. I had this mental image of being in a tunnel and instead of the light at the end of the tunnel being extremely narrow and a distant spot, the light opened up and the tunnel got wider and wider and went in many different directions. I talked to you [Kate] about it and said, ‘I am not prepared to pursue one path. We are going to do everything in our power to influence things.' "It was almost like something - I am not saying it was the Holy Spirit - came into me and gave me that image. That is when I really felt I had a clear path." Was it a religious experience? "I can't say it was a vision because I am not clear what a vision is but I had a mental image and it certainly helped me decide. I became a man possessed that night. The next day I was up at dawn, making phone calls." A few days later the McCanns attended an evening vigil for Madeleine at Fr Zé's church organised by the local scouts. The service, in a church lit by candles, was, they say, the most uplifting they had ever been to. There came a point where the congregation was asked to unravel a large ball of green wool passing it from one person to another until it encompassed the entire gathering. The very memory of this service seems to give the McCanns a lift and they complete each other's sentences as they remember it. "We sang a song, and we just kept singing the same verse, ‘Nothing will separate us', over and over again and the church was completely overflowing. The wool finally got all the way round and the message was ‘nothing will separate us and we are all united'. We were joined in this. As we were leaving the people just kept giving us flowers." The McCanns' campaign has involved every possible avenue being used to raise the profile of Madeleine. There has been a certain resentment about it but Kate McCann says they have been careful to stress they are not the only parents who have suffered in this way. "Madeleine is incredibly precious to us. Since this happened we have been made more aware of how many missing children there are. It is awful that we didn't know the scale of it before. Madeleine is as special to us as other children are to their parents." Criticism of the McCanns' high-profile strategy followed their trips to Fatima, Rome and elsewhere. The couple were astonished that their request to meet the Pope was granted immediately after they contacted Cardinal Cormac Murphy-O'Connor. The cardinal told them he would do the same for anyone in their situation. "These comments from people like the cardinal really helped sustain us. We know the criticism is small but when you are clinging to positives and hope and prayer, criticism does hit home quite hard when you would normally shrug it off." The visit to Rome involved the use of a private jet supplied by the retail multimillionaire Sir Philip Green. While the McCanns realised that using the plane could generate negative reactions they felt they had to be consistent in accepting every genuine offer of help, no matter how large or small. Private jets, they pointed out, shorten considerably the time they have to spend away from the twins. The hardest thing to ask these parents who have prayed so fervently for their daughter is how they will feel about their faith if she is not returned. Mr McCann was first to respond. "If we don't get Madeleine back alive and well, I am sure our faith will be severely tested. At the end of it, we will still have our faith and we will also have comfort that Madeleine will be looked after. We haven't dwelt on that but I think that is what we will be left with. Our friends, our family, the Church have really rallied round. I think that's the key thing for me." Then his wife spoke: "I have considered that as well and I have felt guilty asking, ‘Will this make or break my faith?' And yet at the same time you could argue that what's happened in the first place could make or break your faith and it hasn't. It's done the opposite. It has given us hope and strength."